I love letters.
I got one from EWC today. Still watiing on Elder's, but EWC's was amazing.
He apparently is now going to be speaking spanish! How nuts is that? Half way thru his mission and he's changing languages! Crazy!
I seriously think he's like, amazing. AHHH! AHHHH! lol. I dunno what else to say. I can't wait for him to get home and be my boy forever and ever. :-)
Other than that, everything is just peachy. I love my life.
<3
-Sab
Monday, May 21, 2007
Thursday, May 17, 2007
wonder of wonders
I am in love with a boy I've never met.
Oh well.
Haha.
EWC is gone, back to Chicago for the second half of his mission. This makes me sad because I can't talk to him for hours at a time and make hopeful amazing plans, but at the same time, I know it is exactly where he needs to be. He is an amazing missionary who really cares about what he is doing, and I love that fact. I love that he is a hard worker and has this testimony... this rock hard testimony that just shows thru everything he is saying and doing by just being the foundation of his world. I love that. So much. I want to learn how to have that. I know I have a testimony, but I want one that is my very existance. Imagine that. It would be amazing.
Summer is going well, other than the fact that I have to do school. Boo that. It sucks. But I LOVE my class. Its SO SO SO SO intresting and awesome. My teacher is a total hippy and yeah. I love it. I don't like my online stats course. I am the worst self-paced, self-motivated learner ever. I'm pretty sure that if all my classes were like my Psych class (every day for three hours, and the only class I was taking... well... maybe one more) I would make WAY better grades. I am so bad at telling myself to do work. I have to be forced to go to class (attendance points are always a plus for me, because then i go, and by going I learn) and then yeah, everything is fine. Online? SUCKS. For serious.
I am excited to go back to provo and see how things work out this school year. I think it'll be fun to see where everything leads me and where I am a year from now. It looks like I'm probally doing a study abroad in Rome during fall semester of 2008, which should be a freaking blast. If everything goes well, Wayne will probally go too. Rock it. Its CHEAP for a study abroad-- only like, 7,000. YAY!
Okay, I have to go do stats. More later.
Love and kisses
Sab
Oh well.
Haha.
EWC is gone, back to Chicago for the second half of his mission. This makes me sad because I can't talk to him for hours at a time and make hopeful amazing plans, but at the same time, I know it is exactly where he needs to be. He is an amazing missionary who really cares about what he is doing, and I love that fact. I love that he is a hard worker and has this testimony... this rock hard testimony that just shows thru everything he is saying and doing by just being the foundation of his world. I love that. So much. I want to learn how to have that. I know I have a testimony, but I want one that is my very existance. Imagine that. It would be amazing.
Summer is going well, other than the fact that I have to do school. Boo that. It sucks. But I LOVE my class. Its SO SO SO SO intresting and awesome. My teacher is a total hippy and yeah. I love it. I don't like my online stats course. I am the worst self-paced, self-motivated learner ever. I'm pretty sure that if all my classes were like my Psych class (every day for three hours, and the only class I was taking... well... maybe one more) I would make WAY better grades. I am so bad at telling myself to do work. I have to be forced to go to class (attendance points are always a plus for me, because then i go, and by going I learn) and then yeah, everything is fine. Online? SUCKS. For serious.
I am excited to go back to provo and see how things work out this school year. I think it'll be fun to see where everything leads me and where I am a year from now. It looks like I'm probally doing a study abroad in Rome during fall semester of 2008, which should be a freaking blast. If everything goes well, Wayne will probally go too. Rock it. Its CHEAP for a study abroad-- only like, 7,000. YAY!
Okay, I have to go do stats. More later.
Love and kisses
Sab
Sunday, May 6, 2007
Waiting
I'm waiting on EWC to call me. He said like... an hour and a half ago that he'd call me back in an hour, and that he had to do something, so he must be held up doing whatever he is doing. He'll call me back eventually, and we'll talk long into the night about random things and life in general.
He really is an amazing boy. And maybe its because he's semi a missionary still that I think that, but I can't wait to meet him face to face. I feel like I know him as well as I know myself.
Wow.
Okay, its the next day, and he called and wow.
We talked for three hours. He seriously is awesome. We decided that yes, we are odd. We like eachother and we've never met. And we plan on dating when he gets back. I'm going to write him the rest of his mission.
I don't know exactly whats goin on, but I can't wait to see where this goes.
He likes me for ME, not for my looks or how I dress. He likes my thoughts and he likes my mind. He knows all my hopes and fears and knows what I want out of life. And, he likes his steak medium rare.
Maybe I'm dumb, but this kid? He's pretty cool.
And yes, RM boy is still semi in the picture, but he dosen't give me butterflies. It doesn't make my heart skip a beat when I see its him on the caller ID. I dunno.
He really is an amazing boy. And maybe its because he's semi a missionary still that I think that, but I can't wait to meet him face to face. I feel like I know him as well as I know myself.
Wow.
Okay, its the next day, and he called and wow.
We talked for three hours. He seriously is awesome. We decided that yes, we are odd. We like eachother and we've never met. And we plan on dating when he gets back. I'm going to write him the rest of his mission.
I don't know exactly whats goin on, but I can't wait to see where this goes.
He likes me for ME, not for my looks or how I dress. He likes my thoughts and he likes my mind. He knows all my hopes and fears and knows what I want out of life. And, he likes his steak medium rare.
Maybe I'm dumb, but this kid? He's pretty cool.
And yes, RM boy is still semi in the picture, but he dosen't give me butterflies. It doesn't make my heart skip a beat when I see its him on the caller ID. I dunno.
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
Oh Boy
Oh boyyyyy
Oh boy Oh Boy Oh Boy.
Boyfriend and I broke up. I'm not really mad. Its whats best for him. And anyways...
RM boy is now in the picture, large an in charge.
Its been SO long since I've fallen this hard this fast. Like, um, I'd say almost exactly a year ago is the last time I felt this way, and I think that was a total load of crap. Like, he hurt me so bad that I'm not even sure the feelings I had were ever really there. Like, I did stupid things and things I regret, even tho I regret nothing in life, all because of these feelings.
I think I have a tendancy to make rash decisions.
I think I don't think before I leap.
I'm SO GLAD I am going home and not seeing him for 7 weeks, because if I really like him, then when I get back I'll know.
I think I really like him.
He is like, amazing. Like holy crap. Like.. oh my gosh.
I've never said this before, because it sounds semi-silly, but I feel safe when we are kissing. I feel like he would never try to take advantage of me or try to push things to far. I feel like he is this awesome guy who wants to be with me and wouldn't ever hurt me on purpose. Like, if we were ever to part ways, it would be because of something mutual, because we didn't feel that we belonged togehter.
He asked me out last night, and I said no.
I'm leaving for 7 weeks, and as much as I like him... as much as I think he is this wonderful boy who is taking my world by storm, I just can't be with someone for 7 weeks not seeing him when I've only known him for as many days as weeks before I leave. But boy oh boy, I like him.
Like, I dunno. I get this feeling when I'm thinking about him. My heart beats a little faster. I get this stupid grin on my face. I just want him here right now so I can give him the biggest hug of all time.
Its a little bit scary because he is marriable. He is someone who I could spend the rest of forever with. He is someone who not only has potential, but is a pretty great guy now.
And then I think... I'm 19 years old. I'm not ready for all this. I am writing like, 7 missionaries. I'm not supposed to get into a serious relationship until Wanye or David or Phil gets home and its supposed to be with them. I'm supposed to marry someone who I've known for a long long time.
And I know this whole rant is a little premature, seeing as I've known him for... um.. 5 days. And that we aren't even boyfriend girlfriend (my choice on that one, I guess) but I dunno.
I just dunno.
I guess we'll see how this all plays out.
Oh boy Oh Boy Oh Boy.
Boyfriend and I broke up. I'm not really mad. Its whats best for him. And anyways...
RM boy is now in the picture, large an in charge.
Its been SO long since I've fallen this hard this fast. Like, um, I'd say almost exactly a year ago is the last time I felt this way, and I think that was a total load of crap. Like, he hurt me so bad that I'm not even sure the feelings I had were ever really there. Like, I did stupid things and things I regret, even tho I regret nothing in life, all because of these feelings.
I think I have a tendancy to make rash decisions.
I think I don't think before I leap.
I'm SO GLAD I am going home and not seeing him for 7 weeks, because if I really like him, then when I get back I'll know.
I think I really like him.
He is like, amazing. Like holy crap. Like.. oh my gosh.
I've never said this before, because it sounds semi-silly, but I feel safe when we are kissing. I feel like he would never try to take advantage of me or try to push things to far. I feel like he is this awesome guy who wants to be with me and wouldn't ever hurt me on purpose. Like, if we were ever to part ways, it would be because of something mutual, because we didn't feel that we belonged togehter.
He asked me out last night, and I said no.
I'm leaving for 7 weeks, and as much as I like him... as much as I think he is this wonderful boy who is taking my world by storm, I just can't be with someone for 7 weeks not seeing him when I've only known him for as many days as weeks before I leave. But boy oh boy, I like him.
Like, I dunno. I get this feeling when I'm thinking about him. My heart beats a little faster. I get this stupid grin on my face. I just want him here right now so I can give him the biggest hug of all time.
Its a little bit scary because he is marriable. He is someone who I could spend the rest of forever with. He is someone who not only has potential, but is a pretty great guy now.
And then I think... I'm 19 years old. I'm not ready for all this. I am writing like, 7 missionaries. I'm not supposed to get into a serious relationship until Wanye or David or Phil gets home and its supposed to be with them. I'm supposed to marry someone who I've known for a long long time.
And I know this whole rant is a little premature, seeing as I've known him for... um.. 5 days. And that we aren't even boyfriend girlfriend (my choice on that one, I guess) but I dunno.
I just dunno.
I guess we'll see how this all plays out.
Monday, April 23, 2007
stuff
Stuff is just stuff.
It can be replaced.
Money is just money.
It can be reearned.
Thats all for now. Just think about that.
It can be replaced.
Money is just money.
It can be reearned.
Thats all for now. Just think about that.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Boyfriend
Once again, I have a boyfriend.
Its intresting. I used to measure my life in boyfriends. Its not like I measured it in years, or days, or months. It was in boyfriends. Someone would talk about some event and I would say "Yeah, thats when I was dating so and so" My life revolved around boys. It revolved around feeling loved and feeling wanted and feeling like I was deseriable, at least to one person at that time.
I'm not sure I want to do that again.
Don't get me wrong. I really like boyfriend. He is a super awesome guy. He is tall and wonderful and sweet and a perfect gentleman. And I was his first kiss. And I can't break his heart, even tho it is inevitable at this point.
ugh.
more later.
Its intresting. I used to measure my life in boyfriends. Its not like I measured it in years, or days, or months. It was in boyfriends. Someone would talk about some event and I would say "Yeah, thats when I was dating so and so" My life revolved around boys. It revolved around feeling loved and feeling wanted and feeling like I was deseriable, at least to one person at that time.
I'm not sure I want to do that again.
Don't get me wrong. I really like boyfriend. He is a super awesome guy. He is tall and wonderful and sweet and a perfect gentleman. And I was his first kiss. And I can't break his heart, even tho it is inevitable at this point.
ugh.
more later.
Monday, April 2, 2007
Oh Boy
Thats right, ladies and gentlemen, there is a boy.
He is tall (6'2!) dark and handsome and he isn't a skinny stick boy... he is solid and makes me feel little bitty.
And school sucks.
And I've been sick for the last week.
And he and I talked for a million hours and I liiiikkkkeee hiiimmmm.
And thats about it.
^.^
He is tall (6'2!) dark and handsome and he isn't a skinny stick boy... he is solid and makes me feel little bitty.
And school sucks.
And I've been sick for the last week.
And he and I talked for a million hours and I liiiikkkkeee hiiimmmm.
And thats about it.
^.^
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