You Live, You Learn

I am SO sick of school. Ugh. 

But tomorrow I get to go to Macey's and find out about my job. Woo! Making food is basically all I've ever wanted in a job, so this should be pretty sweet.

I've been feeling such huge feelings lately.

The love I have for David grows every day. This weekend we got to talk and be lazy together, and snuggle and shop and be rediculous. I love it when we are silly. We just giggle a lot and joke around, and we can't even kiss because we laugh too hard every time we do. It is wonderful to have someone who you can be your complete self around.

Monday night was a rough night, but somehow we made it though. Every time I think of how amazing David is, I cannot belive that I ever thought I could settle for the likes of anyone else. I have all of Philip's letters in my desk drawers, and they sit in their ziplock, ready to be thrown into a cleansing fire at the end of this semester. But a part of me wants to save them. A part of me wants my daughters to read those letters from him and see how they don't want to be treated. I want them to compare him to their Daddy, their superman. I want them to know how amazing their Father is, and what a great man he is to me. He packs bags while I sleep, and lets me lay in bed when my back hurts while he cleans up the house. He takes care of things so that I don't have to, and he basically treats me like a princess. When we were in disneyland, we were at a Character dinner and Belle came by and was talking to us, and said something like, "she is your princess" and he just looked at me and said yes. It was a great feeling, to know that he really does think that. I love that I can cry because he makes me so happy and he is okay with it, and just holds me close until I'm allright. He is wonderful.

Okay, enough sappy for one night. I am just really really glad that I am marrying my best friend. I don't think that I could be making a better life choice. 

There is sunshine in my soul today

I am going to Hawaii. Next weekend. ROCK THAT. 

David's parents called us yesterday and asked us if we wanted to go. I am finding out after class if I get to take my test a day late (its not like I'll do any extra studying. I'll be in a place with sun and a beach and an ocean to keep me busy) so we can go thrusday night and come back wednesday morning. Word. I'm going to lay on the sand and try to surf maybe and basically just have so much fun I won't know what to do with myself. 

Also, I fell and hit my tailbone and its bruised and it hurts really really badly. So I have an insurance claim with the Riv. Hopefully I get money so I can buy some shoes. That would be cool. 

Only 30 mins left till I get to play with David until my next class.

David is wonderful. 

Life is allright.

School sucks.

The end.

Rock the fact that I love my life

I just got off the phone with Laura. I CANNOT WAIT FOR SUMMER. Basically, we are going to have the most fun of all time ever, the end. Seriously.
Also, TALLY HALL IS COMING TO PROVO! AHHH!
Also, THE ROCKET SUMMER IS COMING TO SLC!!!!
This is going to be the best semester ever.
I'm going on weight watchers, and I'm going to work out more.
And I'm done with this whole being sick thing. Lame on that.
School blows, but I'll be able to do it allright.
Life is gooood.

Some nights, I feel the stars shining down on me

Last night was wonderful. I laid on the couch in the arms of my love while we told eachother our fears and hopes and concerns. He opened his heart. I opened mine to what he was saying. I love the feeling that he is holding the whole world inside of his arms whenever I am in his. He means everything he says in regards to loving me, and I hope that I will be able to accept that love more fully in the coming months and years.
I love the fact that we are both Mormon. We have started praying together every night, and it is such a great experience. Usually we kneel by the couch at whomever's apartment we are at, and I lay my head on his shoulder and put my hands in his. Last night, Sam was sick and her boyfriend and his roommate came over to give her a blessing right as we were about to pray, so we went outside and stood by his car and hugged and he said the prayer like that. I knew without a doubt that this is the man who I want to spend the rest of my life with. I knew that he was the one who would be saying the other half of my couple prayers for the rest of my life. I knew that he would whisper a prayer into our children's ears, and would help them fold their arms and hold them in his lap.
I really do love him, and hope that I can show him how much I love him every day.

Life is good

I have this mug sitting on my desk. I put water in it in the morning and put a pill in my mouth and swallow it down with whats in the mug. I put water in it at night an do the same thing. Sometimes I wonder if I will be doing this the rest of my life. And the irony is what is on the mug: Life is good. The only way life can be good is when I fill it up and take a pill down. I have slowly been feeling more normal. I still get pissed at David a lot, but its getting to be for a reason instead of for nothing at all. And I am starting to notice how amazing he is. He opens my door for me whenever we go anywhere. He always reaches for my hand. He lets me be stupid and doesn't hate me. He got me a yellow rose with red at the tips. He is all mine.
I got SO mad today, not at him, but at this stupid girl he works with. She was apparently all up on him. And I got SO mad. I don't like that, at all. He is mine, and I want to go find that girl and punch her in the face to let her know it. I don't want anyone else even looking in his direction. I am so scared that he is going to realize that there is SO much better out that, I am terrified of it. And he knows it, and he holds my face in his hands and looks into my eyes, and lets me know that I am the only one he wants. He won't ever stop doing it, either. He loves me, despite all my flaws, and my fluffy tummy and my mood swings. He loves me even though I'm a jealous jerk and am so insecure in myself. He loves me, and I couldn't ask for anything more from him.
This summer looks like its going to be a really really hard one. As of now, he will probably be doing summer sales for apx, and will probably be on the east coast. Lame sauce. He gets 2 days off the whole summer, so maybe I'll get to see him two weekends. That would be spiffy. I'm just going to miss him a whole whole whole lot. He is my world. Geez. But, apparently, he'll make at least 10,000 bucks, minus 1,600 for rent, and if he sells 100 contracts, he gets his rent paid for. Bonus! He is going to try to sell 10 systems before he goes in April (waaaaa. Its so close!) so he can get paid even more, so if you know anyone in the greater utah area in need of a security system, let me know. :-)
I hate school, but thats not new.
I have gone to all 4 of my 8 o'clock classes. Its a miracle! We'll see how well I can do the rest of the semester. I have a feeling one morning it will be raining, and I will sleep in and catch up on my reading all day. :-)
Life is good. Someone come play with me!!

About Me

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Hi! I'm Sabrina! I live in Provo, Utah. I attend BYU.I am majoring in Psych. But I really want to bake and cook all day long. To do this, I am going to go to the FCI in NYC. This shall happen after the love of my life, my hunkahunka burning love, the boy with the the cutey booty, David Allen graduates from BYU. Which should be in about 3 years. I shall make him my hubs on 08.08.08 and we will be one of those cute married couples who holds hands and makes you sick because they are so sweet.
I bake a lot, and cook even more. If you are hungry I will probably feed you. Unless you smell really bad. I can't deal with that mess.
I have four best friends here, who I affectionatly call "The Girls." They are hott, and half are taken, so for the other two, if you are tall or really cool, let me know and maybe I'll set you up. They are going to be my pretty bridesmaids and my something blue, since they all seem to think I should be marrying them instead of David.
I have two best friends who don't live here, but on the other dang side of the country. I love them a lot, and together we make HPI. They are going to be my maids of honor, and are going to rock the sleeveless dresses at a Mormon wedding. They are also going to throw me a raging bachelorette party. And when they come to Utah for my wedding, they are going to drink Provo Girl beer for me, because nothing says irony like anything provo on an alcoholic beverage.
My parents are actually the coolest people I know. My dad has been living in Utah building a house in Park City for almost two years now. Hopefully by the time you read this he will be back in Texas, pinching the butt of my Mom, who he is madly in love with after 28 years of marriage. My mom has her PhD and has a classroom in a mall, true story. I love them a lot and owe them everything.
I have two brothers. One of them is 25 and single, and ladies, I have been told he is quite a looker. If you are looking, let me know. He needs to get married and have some babies.
Now that this is long enough, I would like to say that I am the luckiest girl in the whole world, and could not ask for anything else from my Heavenly Father, whom has never left me wanting. Unless, of course, he would like to give me some more Steve Madden shoes. :-)

I dyed my hair

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