Sunday, January 27, 2008

Rock the fact that I love my life

I just got off the phone with Laura. I CANNOT WAIT FOR SUMMER. Basically, we are going to have the most fun of all time ever, the end. Seriously.
This is going to be the best semester ever.
I'm going on weight watchers, and I'm going to work out more.
And I'm done with this whole being sick thing. Lame on that.
School blows, but I'll be able to do it allright.
Life is gooood.

Monday, January 21, 2008

Some nights, I feel the stars shining down on me

Last night was wonderful. I laid on the couch in the arms of my love while we told eachother our fears and hopes and concerns. He opened his heart. I opened mine to what he was saying. I love the feeling that he is holding the whole world inside of his arms whenever I am in his. He means everything he says in regards to loving me, and I hope that I will be able to accept that love more fully in the coming months and years.
I love the fact that we are both Mormon. We have started praying together every night, and it is such a great experience. Usually we kneel by the couch at whomever's apartment we are at, and I lay my head on his shoulder and put my hands in his. Last night, Sam was sick and her boyfriend and his roommate came over to give her a blessing right as we were about to pray, so we went outside and stood by his car and hugged and he said the prayer like that. I knew without a doubt that this is the man who I want to spend the rest of my life with. I knew that he was the one who would be saying the other half of my couple prayers for the rest of my life. I knew that he would whisper a prayer into our children's ears, and would help them fold their arms and hold them in his lap.
I really do love him, and hope that I can show him how much I love him every day.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Life is good

I have this mug sitting on my desk. I put water in it in the morning and put a pill in my mouth and swallow it down with whats in the mug. I put water in it at night an do the same thing. Sometimes I wonder if I will be doing this the rest of my life. And the irony is what is on the mug: Life is good. The only way life can be good is when I fill it up and take a pill down. I have slowly been feeling more normal. I still get pissed at David a lot, but its getting to be for a reason instead of for nothing at all. And I am starting to notice how amazing he is. He opens my door for me whenever we go anywhere. He always reaches for my hand. He lets me be stupid and doesn't hate me. He got me a yellow rose with red at the tips. He is all mine.
I got SO mad today, not at him, but at this stupid girl he works with. She was apparently all up on him. And I got SO mad. I don't like that, at all. He is mine, and I want to go find that girl and punch her in the face to let her know it. I don't want anyone else even looking in his direction. I am so scared that he is going to realize that there is SO much better out that, I am terrified of it. And he knows it, and he holds my face in his hands and looks into my eyes, and lets me know that I am the only one he wants. He won't ever stop doing it, either. He loves me, despite all my flaws, and my fluffy tummy and my mood swings. He loves me even though I'm a jealous jerk and am so insecure in myself. He loves me, and I couldn't ask for anything more from him.
This summer looks like its going to be a really really hard one. As of now, he will probably be doing summer sales for apx, and will probably be on the east coast. Lame sauce. He gets 2 days off the whole summer, so maybe I'll get to see him two weekends. That would be spiffy. I'm just going to miss him a whole whole whole lot. He is my world. Geez. But, apparently, he'll make at least 10,000 bucks, minus 1,600 for rent, and if he sells 100 contracts, he gets his rent paid for. Bonus! He is going to try to sell 10 systems before he goes in April (waaaaa. Its so close!) so he can get paid even more, so if you know anyone in the greater utah area in need of a security system, let me know. :-)
I hate school, but thats not new.
I have gone to all 4 of my 8 o'clock classes. Its a miracle! We'll see how well I can do the rest of the semester. I have a feeling one morning it will be raining, and I will sleep in and catch up on my reading all day. :-)
Life is good. Someone come play with me!!

Monday, January 14, 2008

About Me


Hi! I'm Sabrina! I live in Provo, Utah. I attend BYU.I am majoring in Psych. But I really want to bake and cook all day long. To do this, I am going to go to the FCI in NYC. This shall happen after the love of my life, my hunkahunka burning love, the boy with the the cutey booty, David Allen graduates from BYU. Which should be in about 3 years. I shall make him my hubs on 08.08.08 and we will be one of those cute married couples who holds hands and makes you sick because they are so sweet.
I bake a lot, and cook even more. If you are hungry I will probably feed you. Unless you smell really bad. I can't deal with that mess.
I have four best friends here, who I affectionatly call "The Girls." They are hott, and half are taken, so for the other two, if you are tall or really cool, let me know and maybe I'll set you up. They are going to be my pretty bridesmaids and my something blue, since they all seem to think I should be marrying them instead of David.
I have two best friends who don't live here, but on the other dang side of the country. I love them a lot, and together we make HPI. They are going to be my maids of honor, and are going to rock the sleeveless dresses at a Mormon wedding. They are also going to throw me a raging bachelorette party. And when they come to Utah for my wedding, they are going to drink Provo Girl beer for me, because nothing says irony like anything provo on an alcoholic beverage.
My parents are actually the coolest people I know. My dad has been living in Utah building a house in Park City for almost two years now. Hopefully by the time you read this he will be back in Texas, pinching the butt of my Mom, who he is madly in love with after 28 years of marriage. My mom has her PhD and has a classroom in a mall, true story. I love them a lot and owe them everything.
I have two brothers. One of them is 25 and single, and ladies, I have been told he is quite a looker. If you are looking, let me know. He needs to get married and have some babies.
Now that this is long enough, I would like to say that I am the luckiest girl in the whole world, and could not ask for anything else from my Heavenly Father, whom has never left me wanting. Unless, of course, he would like to give me some more Steve Madden shoes. :-)

I dyed my hair

Life Revolution

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Its been a while...

Life has come at me fast and hard. Holy Junk.
Lets go backwards, because thats how I roll.
This week sucked. Me and David were just mad at each other all week, (minus) I started new meds, (plus) he forgot to take his, (minus) we got into a car accident and had to deal with all the stupid insurance/blame stuff,(minus) even tho it was totally the other person's fault.(double minus) School started,(minus, for too soon) I had 16 hours, dropped a class and now have 12 and only have class tues/thrus. (plus) David's work was lame lame lame and didn't put him on schedule,(minus) which is bad bad bad because we spent a buck load of money this week (minus) buying him a desk, starting groceries, supplies for the apt, etc.(plus) He finally got it worked out (after he killed some people, I think) and is working tomorrow night and thursday and friday during the day. (plus) Hopefully he can make enough to pay off his gym pass, which he got on thrus. woooo! (plus) we worked out together (haha for like 30 mins) on thrus night and when he gets on a more regular work schedule we are going to figure out when we can go that works for both of us. (plus) We got into the biggest fight of our relationship last night, (minus) and I really thought it was going to be over. (minus) I was freaking out (minus) (I think some of it was new meds, which I started that day, and a lot of it was the stress of the wreck and adjusting to being together all the time) and it just was really bad. (minus) We ended up driving up the canyon (we didn't talk the whole way. it wasn't fun) (minus) and finally stopping and talking everything out.(plus) He is so amazing and wonderful. Seriously. He is the most amazing man I have ever known. He is so forgiving, understanding, generous and selfless. I can't imagine spending my life with anyone else. He is my entire world, and I love him with all of my heart. I feel so lucky that he picked me and that he loves me despite all my flaws. He is my other half. (major multiple plusses, that rule out all minuses and then some) So yeah, there is a week which should have sucked royally, and did, other than the fact that I got to see the man I'm going to marry every day and each day I knew, more than the last, that he is the one for me. (we also went out with Stevi and TyTy tonight, and that was fun, minus the lamness of the movie we went to see. warning: across the universe has nipples. . . of the girl variety. think titanic. lame)
The week previous to this one was kindof fun. Well, the first half was. I was in Maryland, and spent time with Rad. I love her. A lot. And we sat around in our PJs and didn't shower and watched the free movies from comcast, which included Anastasia. I would have paid to see that, because its amazing. I love Demetri. :-) I got a sinus infection while I was in MD, which sucked, but it was okay. When I got back to Texas, David was there and we ate dinner at my house with his friends. That was fun. The next day I drove back to Utah, which sucked. I hate that drive. Its ugly and boring. Booooo.
The week previous to that one I started out in Texas. Moms and me went and got my wedding flowers (for 50% off! yay!) and started looking at fabric, before my ovaries started to explode. That sucked. I took a lot of drugs and went to bed. That helped a lot. Me and Brooklyn are going sometime in the next 5 days to look at JoAnn's to see if they have anything that would work, b/c I have a coupon. Rock that. Me and my pops went to REI and got him a spiffy new spoon/spatula thing and a mug with a lid that is giant. All the better for his large cups of hot coco (also, sidenote, postum got discontinued. oh no! what are all the mormons going to have as their substitute coffee?!?!) I read a lot of bridal mags and hung out with Laura. I love her a lot.
The week before that was finals. Boo. That resulted in Sabrina being on Academic Warning. Lame sauce. Just because I failed 1 class and got a D- in another. Common BYU. Cut me some slack. Now I have to do some workbook thing, which is gay, but I'll do it b/c I have to be a responsible adult. At least I'm not on probation. I have to make a 2.1 this semester or something to get off warning, and I think I'll be able to do that, so thats good. Yay!
Blah blah blah. I don't really have anything else to say as of right now. Oh wait, some new year's resolutions:
1. Lose 20+ pounds. I am 155 right now. That is overweight. I hate my naked body, which I used to love, so I want to get back down to 135, which is totally obtainable, if I diet and exercise right. I would love to get down to 125, but I don't see that happening unless I cut off my boobs and my butt, so I'm gonna say 135 is good with me. I gotta look hot in all those wedding pictures, ya know?
2. Be better with church stuff. Pretty self explanatory.
3. Write in this on a regular basis (I'm trying, k? It'll happen.)
4. Marry David Philip Allen.
5. Rock school.
The end.