I took a nap today (for like, three hours) and now I can't fall asleep. SUCK. As soon as I write this I HAVE to go to bed. I have a test in the morning.
So elder hasn't written me yet. My stomach has this terrible feeling that he hates me now, which hurts all the way to my toes. I hate that I have gotten so good at pushing people away from my life when I need them the most. It sucks. I dunno what I'm going to do when he does write me... I don't know what I want/need out of him, so I don't exactly know why its bugging me so much. Maybe I just want to know. I dunno. Ugh.
I'm also waiting on a letter from EWC. I miss him SO much. Ugh. My heart wants to explode.
How can i have so much feeling for two diffrent people.
I give up.